Each time I visited my mother last summer I was thinking if I should tell her about that had quit my teaching job and decided to become a freelance. She had problems with her heart and blood pressure and many other things and I was so afraid that this news would not do good to her. And I thought she would have never understand my decision anyway. So each time when she asks me how are things at school I lied that everything is ok. And thought that next time when she asked I will definitely tell her. And then she suddenly died... MM